Take Your Hearts Outside, Leaves Your Lives Behind
(Dubstar – Stars)

While driving home from basketball yesterday, I had the sudden impulse to turn around and head north. No destination in mind, just north. Every now and then I have that need for flight. It’s a sign that I’m due for a vacation. I have a friend who’s touring Asia right now for three weeks. That’s something I’ve been telling myself that I needed to do right after I graduated from university. It’s been almost 7 years now and I’ve yet to leave this continent. This begs the question, “What am I waiting for??”

I guess with me it has always been about finding stability before I did anything risky. I could have left for Japan to teach for a year right after graduation but I decided to stay and find a job in my field before taking any extended vacation. I ended up working odd jobs for a year and then going back to school to get a post-grad diploma.

Now I’ve got a stable job and steady income but I still have oodles and oodles of student loans to pay off, as well as my car loan. For me, there always seems to be an excuse not to go. There’ll always be an excuse not to do something but if the world was going to end tomorrow, I’m sure I’d be rushing to finish all the things I’ve dreamt about doing all my life. Some of those I’d obviously never get around to and regret not making the time sooner.

So if there’s no tomorrow and all I have is here and now, would I be happy with what I’ve got and what I’ve already accomplished? Probably not. I doubt many of us would be. Does that mean I’m not happy with my life -- not at all. I just need to be more aggressive with pursuing some of my dreams.